The way you leave me

Today you tell me so much things I don't know before. I'm shocked.

Which Way should I Take

It seems like I have no way to go. Is everything undercontrol? My love left me , my manager appears to not content with me. How tired! These days are so hard to me, but why do I stop?

Will you marry me? I know you won't .`couse I have no money, I have nothing for you. How could you talk to me like that ! Now ,the last gate for you is open .You know what? I'm considering wether we will be together. Maybe not, probably, not . You don't want me any more ,you won't treat my parents like me .

Do you think about me? You said I should ask for money from my parents , because of our wedding . Is that right? Your parents have pension after you get married . But how about mine?
You let me do this for you ,for your parents ,but have you ever treated my parents right?They have no ability to take care themselves if they give me this .

I love my parents more than myself,anything else. SO will you do this to my parents, instead of me? I think you won't.

Whatever^

can you see

dear, can you figure it out? This is what I want to tell you. Will you miss me ?are you sad for losing me ?

Love is an ELLUSION

Yesterday, when you talked to me like that , told me i was nothing for you , did something to me , I become to be deadly sad , You went home by yourself, leaving me behind ,alone. Suddently, I read a message you sent to you friend .You told your friend that your ex-boyfriend asked you came back. You know what about my feeling? My heart was dead again.

I still remember what you said to me about that guy, you told me I'm you first love . Actually, I don't care this very much, but I do care you lied to me .Do you still remember Mid-autumn night when somebody called you, you acted like someone you really don't care gave you a call . You lied to me again. I wonder why you do this to me ，how many times you lie to me , how many things you never tell me , how many guys make you can treat me like this.

Darling, I loved you .This love can hold so much pain , make me be paient of anything . But this time it doesn't work. Am I wrong? Is this love I give you wrong? You beat me ,curse me, do anything to let me go. Now , you got it.

Can you tell me what you've gaven to me these three years? Can you tell me when you loved me ? You shouted to me ,"Have I told you that I love you !Have I said you belond to me ?I have principle!!!" Each word I just cannot hold , make me cry again ,again and again. I cry for myself ,for us ,for our love.

How many times you lie to me ?